Day off With Zac, Time to Reflect

I had to take the day off with the kiddo since he has to be fever-free for 24 hours before Daycare will allow him to come back. I think the meds are really working, he slept the whole night through. Which means Mom and Dad got a good night's sleep as well. We were all tired from the night before. He's been in a pretty good mood today, he's only coughed a few times, still has a runny nose. He's taking a nap right now, so I'm taking advantage of the peace and quiet! It seems like I've been so busy with training at work, keeping up with the weekly grind of making dinner, doing laundry, the holidays approaching, that I haven't had time to sit and reflect about that we are truly blessed to be having twins. It was such shocking news, we are so excited and grateful that this is in our future. The one "extra" blessing changes everything! We really need/want to move back to Blue Springs to be closer to family. When we bought this house over 5 years ago, kids were not in our immediate plans, so living a little farther South didn't seem like an issue. Now with one son, and twins on the way, family is so important. There is nothing for us out here. Our baby girls are really kicking and moving around! I first felt them kick at 17 weeks. They are mostly active at night, when I'm trying to sleep! It is awesome to feel them moving around in my tummy. To know that they are growing and getting bigger every day. Before I was pregnant with Zac, I couldn't imagine what my body would look like. Now how will I look carrying 2? My labor and delivery with Zac was not "normal", but what is, right? He was 5 weeks early and I was able to experience childbirth naturally (not by choice of course, he was ready to enter the world!). I am a little nervous of the likelihood of having to undergo a C-section. I know it's more routine with twins and many women have this surgery. Just the thought of being under the knife, and knowing Ryan will be the only family member allowed, is hard. Of course, there is a chance to deliver the twins naturally. Whatever it takes, as long as they are healthy, that's all that matters. I may not wear the latest fashion trends (heck I can't remember the last piece of clothing I bought myself), instead of going to the movies I wait for them to come out on DVD, I may not have the biggest house,it may not be spotless (I know that will be put on the back burner after the girls arrive), but my life is filled with love. Everyone says children will change your lives, but you really can't explain or describe in words the love you have for your child. Where does all that love come from? It seems endless, I loved the girls the moment I found out I was pregnant, before I knew there were 2 of them, I loved the little baby growing inside me.